Friday, 13 December 2019

தினமொரு முறை காதல் சொல்

காதலுற்றதால் வரும்
துயரை விட
அதைச் சொல்லில்
வடிப்பதே பெரும்
வேதனையூட்டுதடி

அத்தனை வலி தாங்கியும்
அனுதினமும்
காரணம் பல்லாயிரம்
சொல்வேன்
கண்மணி மேல்
காதல் வர

அதில் ஒன்றேனும்
ஓர் முறை சொல்டி
என்னிடத்தில் நீ
காதல் கொள்ள

நிற்பதற்கும் நேரமின்றி
நிரம்பி நிற்கும்
உன் நாட்குறிப்பில்
எனக்கென
சில மணித்துளி
தரமாட்டாயா

திருமகள் திருமுகம்
எளியவன்
திசை பாராதா

கண்ணில் தெரியும்
உன் காதல்
சொல்லில் வாராதா

பாலைப் பெருநிலம் கடக்கும்
வறியவன் நான்
கானல் காட்சியென
உன் காதல் தெரியுதடி

குவளையில் நீர் உண்டென
அறிந்தென்ன பயன்
அடித் தொண்டை
நனையும் வரை

தணல் வெப்பத்தில் காய்ந்தும்
கண்ணீரில்  தோய்ந்தும்
நிதம் மனம் நோகுதடி

உன் செவ்வாய்
மலர்ந்து‌ ஒவ்வோர்
நாளும் காதல் சொல்லடி
உலரும் என் உயிர்
சிறு துளிர் விடும்.

Wednesday, 4 December 2019

முத்தங்கள் குறித்து

நெற்றியில் தொடங்கி
மோவாயில் முடிக்கிறேன்

இமைகளும் கன்னங்களும்
உனக்கு இரண்டென
முத்தக் கணக்கிட்டே
அறிகிறேன்

உனைக் காணாத
பொழுதுகளின்
கடன் மிச்சம்
முத்தங்களால்
கட்டித் தீர்க்கிறேன்

பரிகாசம் செய்யும்
உன் இதழ்களை
முத்தச் சிறையிலடைக்கிறேன்

முத்தங்கள் முடிந்த பின்
ஓராயிரம் கேள்விகள் கேட்கிறாய்

விடை எதுவென
விழி பிதுங்கி நிற்கையில்
எல்லா கேள்விகளுக்கும் முத்தங்களே பதில் என்கிறாய்

தவறான விடைகளுக்கு
தண்டனை இரட்டிப்பு
முத்தங்கள் என்கிறாய்

வாய் வலிக்க
பதில் சொல்லி
தலைசுற்றி நிற்கிறேன்

நான் விட்ட இடத்திலிருந்து
நீ மீண்டும்
துவங்குகிறாய்

அன்பின் அளவுகோல்
முத்தமே என்றால்
நம் காதல்
அலைகடலினும் பெரிதென
சிவக்கிறாய்.

Tuesday, 19 November 2019

தமிழிலே காதல் சொல் கண்ணா

எழுத்துக் கூட்டிப் படிக்கிறாய்
பேசிப் பழகும்
குழந்தை போல்
கொஞ்சிப் பேசி
வார்த்தை சரிதானே
என சிரிக்கிறாய்

ஓதுவார் பாட்டினிலோ
பாவலர் கற்பனையினிலோ
எவருக்கும் எட்டாத
புது வார்த்தைகள்
நிதம் புனைகிறாய்

தோழன் எனை
தீந்தமிழில்
கவி எழுது
வேறு மொழி வேண்டாம்
தாயிருக்க செவிலி
எதற்கு நண்பா
எனக் கடிந்துரைத்தான்

உயிர் ஊற்றி
கவி வளர்த்தென்ன
பயன் நண்பா
என்‌ கண்மணிக்கு புரியாதெனில்
எனத் தேற்றினேன்

உன்னிடத்தில்
இதைச் சொல்லி
நகைத்தேன்

என் கண்ணா
வார்த்தைகள்
புரிகிறதோ அன்றோ
கண்மணிக்கு
உன் காதல்
புரியும் என்றாய்

தமிழ் பிழைத்ததோ அன்றோ
நிச்சயம் காதல் பிழைத்தது.

Monday, 11 November 2019

காணாத நாட்கள்


நீ அருகிலாத
பொழுதுகளில்
இந்த அறை
முழுதும் உன் வாசமே
நிரம்பித் திளைக்கிறது

சிறு கொலுசின்
மணி போல
நீ சிரிக்கும்
மென் ஒலியே
காற்றில் அலைகிறது

நீர்ப் பறவையின்
அலகில் சிக்குண்ட மீனாய்
மனம் துள்ளித் துடிக்கிறது

காணாத நாட்களையே
காலத்தின் சுவட்டிலிருந்து
அழித்துவிட முடியாதா

ஓர் நொடி
கண்மூடி விழித்தால்
மந்திரம் செய்தது போல்
உன் முன் வரவே
முடியாதா

இந்த கொடுந்துயர்
தாளாது
கவி எழுதித்
தீராது

விடைபெறும் தருணத்தில்
உன் கைப்பையில்
எனை திணித்துக் கொள்

போகுமிடமெலாம்
எனை தூக்கிச் செல்
கண்மணி.

Wednesday, 30 October 2019

A heart like the sea


No one loves a turbulent sea
Inundations breaching the shore
Thrashing its arms on the rocks
Splashing sea spray and
Scaring the kissing birds.

Nor anyone wants it
To be calm and still
As the silence of the sea
Is more fearsome
Than its roar.

Everyone needs an illusion
A constant murmur reassuring
An elaborate lie to
Fragile men that
The mighty ocean is tame
And it crawls to your feet
Like a child.

My heart is just like the sea
On a bright day
It murmurs words of love
On other days
It rumbles and grumbles
The sufferings and fears
That cloud my mind
At times it remains
Calm as a monk
Its silence
Deep as the abyss.

Maybe the heart
Mirrors the sea
As the waves rise and fall
The heartbeats follow.

No one knows
The currentsn underneath the surface
Nor do they know
The tempests that topple the ships
Or the calmness that prevails
Beyond the horizon.

Saturday, 26 October 2019

Asuran - a fraud on caste discrimination and violence

Some people ask "do these things really happen”? Or a modified version of that. "Do these things really happen these days?"

No. I am not angry with people who ask such questions out of ignorance. They simply do not know. For the benefit of such innocent souls, a quick refresher on caste101.

Last week, near Madurai, a 14-year-old Dalit schoolboy was attacked with a razor by his classmate. The attacker, also a child from the same class, verbally abused the victim by calling out his caste name.

Two months back, near Vellore, Dalits were denied the right of passage to carry a dead body for cremation. Eventually, they tied the corpse to a rope and lowered it down a bridge to take an alternative route.

October last year, near Salem, a 13-year-old Dalit minor girl was beheaded in front of her mother, for resisting the sexual advances of her attacker. The murderer carried her head all the way to his home. His loving wife asked him to throw away the head somewhere and made a false plea to the police that her husband was mentally ill.

For those who believe this happens only in villages, please spare some time and read about Rohith Vemula, a PhD candidate and Payal Tadvi, a Doctor who was pursuing her Masters Degree.

Those who argue "Oh! Then what about poor people in forward castes?" "Oh! What about those second-generation Dalits who are enjoying the benefits of reservation?" "Oh! I did not get admission in IIT despite scoring 95% because a Dalit student snatched my opportunity", simply do not understand poverty, discrimination and caste-based violence.

This is not about getting admissions in IITs or clearing competitive exams. This is not about opportunities to succeed. Affirmative action gives the oppressed, the right to live like everybody else with dignity, self-respect and basic sustenance. Kids are picking up trash, working in factories, burning corpses in cremation grounds, working as agricultural bonded labourers and doing all kinds of unimaginable jobs because of the caste that they are born into. They are fighting their chance to go to school in the first place, complete schooling, and compete with the rest of the privileged world.

The Rangarajan Committee under the erstwhile Planning Commission said in 2015 that the threshold of poverty in rural India was Rs.972 p.m and Rs.1407 p.m in urban India. It went on to say that 29.5% of the population, i.e. about 3 out of 10 people live under these thresholds of poverty. Compare that with the threshold of Rs 66,666 p.m for 10% reservations (that’s a long topic for another day) set for the general category (i.e. the upper castes). Let that sink in. The last caste-based census was done by the British in 1931. No Government will ever tell you the real state of poverty and the caste-based ratios of the poor. The truth will be harsh.

If your parents could not get you a birthday gift or a new dress for Diwali, or could not afford to send you to a fancy school, it does not make you poor. Those who had the luxury of being fed a proper meal everyday, have a toilet at home so that one doesn't have to defecate near railway tracks or roadsides and not get killed by upper caste men for doing such unhygienic act, going to a school that has a roof and four walls, have a clean dress to wear to school, and the love and care of parents who wake them up and make a warm glass of milk on exam days, ask why should those children who are deprived of even these bare necessities and nurturing be given a quota in admissions.

If you still believe that caste and class are not two sides of the same coin, and start with your "whatabouts", you can stop reading here and proceed with whatever you are doing in your good life.

Class divide stems from caste discrimination.

Caste determines class.

Rohit Vemula, in his last letter, said: "My birth is my fatal accident".

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Asuran takes a sensitive plot element, caste discrimination, but toys and abuses the soul of the plot to the core, all the while enjoying it while the crowd goes gaga about it.

I read about the Keezhvenmani massacre of 1968 as a teenager during a summer vacation spent in my father's library. The details of the violence can make your bones chill. Upper caste landowners burnt alive 44 Dalit workers including women, children and infants for demanding a wage rise. The not so honourable judges of Madras High Court who acquitted the 23 accused after 5 years, noted in the order: "Most of them were rich men, owning vast extent of lands and Gopala Krishna Naidu possessed a car. However much they might have been eager to wreak vengeance on the kisans, it was difficult to believe that they would walk bodily to the scene and set fire to the houses, unaided by any of their servants. They were more likely to play safe, unlike desperate hungry labourers."

After the police, judiciary and the elected representatives failed the people, 12 years since the massacre, a group of Maoists seeking vengeance, murdered the prime accused, in the same place where the massacre happened. A vicious circle of violence.

This is the state of our society. Powerful people gain power from their caste. The rich become rich because of their caste. The poor remain poor because of their caste. The oppressed are crushed under the wheels of the State because they are considered dispensable, also because of their caste. Even the Indian communists did not (maybe still do not?) agree with this view for quite some time and insisted that class and caste are not interlinked. It's another thing that the top line of the political communists is headed exclusively by upper caste leaders.

My beef with Asuran is that it romanticizes the Keezhvenmani massacre into a dark flashback, serving as a backdrop to an all-glorious hero, and reduces the boiling point in Tamil Nadu's communist history, into a melodrama.

Asuran suffers from the same flaws as the other movies (Kabali, Pariyerum Perumal, Kaala) that talk about the oppressed standing up for their rights. They shamelessly advocate violence as a means for liberation and upliftment. The movie piggybacks on the guilty porn instincts of an average movie watcher who enjoys blood and gore on a big screen. This is such an absolutely irresponsible and arrogant act from it's creators. Celebrating and worshipping misguided heroes who go punching and kicking and killing all the way for over two hours, overshadows the obligatory punchline at the end of such movies asking the oppressed children to go to school. This is equivalent to making a dope movie celebrating marijuana, with vivid shots of colourful people smoking weed, but with a statutory advisory to the contrary scrolling below the screen in fine print. Above all, making some fancy money pretending to be Dalit saviours and glorifying violence is an act of fraud.

Other than the aforesaid problems, the movie fails in several departments. Especially, Danush's act as the protagonist. Understandably, Dhanush is Vetrimaran's best buddy and his preferred choice for all lead roles. This mutual ass licking relationship had crossed the bearable threshold long back in Vada Chennai. Not to blame Danush, he tries. But the problem is not in the actor's talent but with the wrong choice of casting. It is a mockery to cast a guy of his looks in the role of a 50-year-old father of two adult children and worse, fighting like a gladiator through a herd of muscle men. Danush walks in slow-motion from all possible directions and butchers a bunch of bad guys single-handedly. I can't believe fanboys shout and scream and celebrate such eyesores. Vetri sucks in casting right actors for the right roles. When he picked stiff faced Andrea for the strongest and central character of Vada Chennai, I had given up already. She did nothing other than dropping her chin and raising her eyes up like the ghost from The Ring movies (Japanese of course), in all sorts of moods. Romance, betrayal, vengeance, power… drop chin, raise eyes, plastic face. Now after the disastrous casting in Asuran, I wish Vetri a speedy recovery. This is not the guy who made Polladhavan and Aadukalam.

We need to talk about caste discrimination. Especially in modern times. Education does not, unfortunately, reform the oppressors to turn a new leaf. On the contrary, they find new ways to discriminate.

From denying footwear and toilets, it evolves in to having an exclusive handwash for vegetarian students at elite universities and forming upper-caste cartels in corporate offices and deny opportunities to others. We know their ugly faces. We need to fight them. Not by violence.

Asuran, Kabalai and Kaala cannot liberate the oppressed. They do not offer any solution to the problem but only add fuel to the fire.

The responsibility to end caste discrimination and violence is in our hands. Not some superhero.

Talk, write, argue. Stand up and raise our voice. Question. Help those you can.

We should keep doing this till the gates of the ivory towers break open, and children of all men can enter those high palaces with their heads held high.

Monday, 21 October 2019

கடலும், காதலும், கண்மணியும்

கொடுஞ்சினம் கொண்ட
பொழுதிலெல்லாம்
கொஞ்சிப் பேசியென்
மனம் குழைத்தாய்.

மதம் கொண்ட
வேழம் போல்
அலைந்த எனை
மண்டியிட்டு
மன்றாட வைத்தாய்.

வந்து வந்து
கரை மோதும்
ஆழிப்பேரலைகள்
பேசும் வார்த்தைகளை
கற்பித்தாய்.

மூச்சிறுக
கட்டியணைத்தே
இருவரும்
ஓர் நிழலாய்
மாறும் விந்தை
காட்டி நகைத்தாய்.

கொட்டும் மழையில்
ஓயாது
முத்தமிட்டு
காலம் காட்சி
உறைய வைத்தாய்.

என்னிரு கைகளில்
முழுமதி
முகம் புதைத்தே
எனை விட்டகலாதே
என்றுரைத்தாய்

ஊழிப் பெருங்கடலில்
திசையற்ற மரக்கலம் போல் திக்கற்று அலைந்த எனை
நங்கூரமாய்
பிடித்தவள் நீ

உன் காதோரம்
அலைபாயும்
கற்றைக் குழல்
சுழலில் சிக்குண்டேன்
கண்மணியே.

Wanderer above the Sea of Fog, Caspar David Friedrich, 1818.

Monday, 7 October 2019

Finding love

Love was perched
On a petal like a dew drop
I touched so gently
Like a butterfly would
A million crystal balls
She splattered into.

I saw her again
On a rain washed road
She came back
And kissed my face
As a monsoon breeze
When I opened my arms
She flew past me.

I went running after love
In the crowded streets
She jumped swiftly
Over a bridge and
Drifted far away.

At the corner of my street
She was flickering
In a dying fire
She turned into a smoke
Before I could
Feel her warmth.

I laid there
In the darkness of
The night so dreary
Crouching my body
On my bed
Like a foetus
In mother's womb
I heard her
Whisper a song
And opened
My eyes so weary.

I saw love
Smiling at me
Like a crescent moon
Curled up
Like a bouquet of
Spring time flowers
Her dancing eyebrows asked
“What's the matter?”

I said “I was searching
For you everywhere
All the places
You could have been”.

Love laughed at me
“I left my marks for you
To follow the trail and
Find me here
At your home
Waiting for you”.

Friday, 27 September 2019

Gita Govinda


I am the lord of the seven seas 
Mountains, valleys, rivers and pastures
Wandering these lands of fading colours.

I am no human to shed tears
But I sigh my grief through this flute
That cries a thousand tunes of pathos.

I danced on the heads of a five-headed snake
Lifted a mountain, slew giants and monsters
Oh! Now I have become a ghost without a soul.

I crushed the skulls of rival kings and foes under my feet
Stepped over the piles of crowns, spears and shattered shields
But this loneliness makes me tremble
As I watch your mirage dissolve in the dark.

Heaps of gold, precious stones, grains and silk
Lay for waste in my dungeons guarded by soldiers and beasts
Yet I am the poorest man yearning for love.

I lay here in my high palace with queens and Gods
Angels dance in my court and chant my name
But I am searching for your scent in the northern winds.

The worlds are at peace, I made laughter and balance
Alas, my heart is filled with chaos.

Poets and Bards sing songs of my glory
Hymns and stories of my deeds and valour
All mortals hail me as the Lord, their God, Gopala! Govinda!
What God am I if I cant grant my very own wish
All I do is weep Radha! Radha! while the whole world sleeps.

Friday, 13 September 2019

Once upon a time in Hollywood - A love letter to Hollywood


One of the fundamental conflicts in appreciating art is about who validates the quality of the art.

Is it the unsophisticated bystander with limited resources and tools of understanding, gazing at an artwork that pleases his simple mind?

Is it the ardent follower of the creator's body of work who appreciates every bit of detail that the creator had infused into his work?

Or is it the wise critique who reflects upon art with worldly wisdom, but may sometimes look down upon art and consider himself to be far more superior to the creator of the work under review?

Watching Quentin Tarantino's films present a perfect opportunity to ponder upon the problem statement, especially at these times when it is hard to find the difference between an average bystander and a wise critique. The lines are getting blurry.

The definition of a good movie doesn't necessarily end with the chaos in Taxi Driver, finesse of The God Father or the complexity of Mulholland Drive. Tarantino keeps reminding us to enjoy pop culture, love for automobiles (not the Fast and Furious bullshit) and heroism as much as we appreciate the neo-noir works.

The flagbearer of contemporary method acting school, Leonardo Decaprio delivers yet another stunning performance in OUATH. Leo plays the role of Rick Dalton, an ester while TV superstar walking into his sunset, all the way fighting self-pity, alcoholism and redemption. Leo is at the peak of his form, and you walk into the movie hall expecting him to give his best. And oh boy he does that and how! As Rick slowly fits into the skin of the alter ego he plays in the movie within the movie, his character goes through a huge metamorphosis. Leo skillfully pulls an act where an average western TV show hero turns in to a great actor. It is a visual treat for those who enjoy fine acting but of course, as the trend goes, the Academy Award for the Best Actor this year may very well go to someone else who plays a melancholic character fighting some obscure terminal disease.

Brad Pitt as Cliff booth, Rick Dalton's stunt double, is the ultimate Tarantino superhero. Only second next to Samuel Jackson's Jules from Pulp Fiction. Cliff is a cool customer smirking at the face of the devil himself (SPOILERS!!!). He glides his Boss's Cadillac through the city like waltzing with a lady in a ballroom and drives back the same road in his Karmann Ghia like a raging torrent rushing through the rocks. Hold your breath when Brad takes his automobile for a sharp turn around the now infamous Cielo Drive up the hills. Even when he has to do the most mundane job in the world like fixing a broken TV antenna, he does it with swag. Ok. That's one shot ladies can rejoice forever and equate with the likes bikini-clad Ursula Andress from Dr. No or Megan Fox leaning over the car hood from the Transformers. I know. I know. Please don't judge me with the choice of references and bombard me with a list of "what abouts". Booth is not all perfect, and he has his share of shady history and mistakes that cost his career and reputation. But he stays strong and smiles all the way. Wait for the shot when the camera pans over Spahn Movie Ranch while Brad Pitt walks in like a Lion strolling into a Hyena clan. No. I am not going to talk about the Bruce Lee scene and spoil your fun. Peter Bradshaw admits that he was laughing for about three minutes after that scene. I did not clock myself, but I remember laughing my guts out.

While the debate goes on whether this is the 9th or 10th movie for Tarantino, the man is self-convinced that this is his penultimate chance to write a love letter to something he loves the most. Cinema. If you are watching closely, you might catch him cheating around with her sister, Television shows.

OUATH is no Avatar or Lord of the Rings to redefine technology or the movie-making process but pure movie-making at its best. Mexican standoffs, close-up shots, brilliant soundtracks, character development and a dramatic finish.

If you are a new movie enthusiast, please do a bit of homework before watching OUATH. Watch Sergio Leone's Dollars Trilogy, at least The Good, the Bad and the Ugly. Did you enjoy the raw heroism in Pulp fiction, Reservoir Dogs and Death Proof? If the answer is negative, you are better off binge-watching something else on Netflix.

Tarantino's fans are in for a great treat. 60's music, vintage automobiles, movie stars playing movie star roles, macho men in brown leather jackets, bare-knuckle punches, monologues and jaw-dropping camera angles. That  subset of fans who are expecting some feet fetish action, can brace themselves for feet galore. There are some intense social media discussions and surveys on the number of feet shots and screen time.

Those who are deeply concerned with the discrimination that Margot Robbie didn't get enough dialogues, can save precious three hours of their lives, by not watching this movie. First of all, Rick & Cliff are playing the roles of outsiders peeking into the lives of their flamboyant neighbours. Secondly, this is not a biopic but an obvious macho movie. Naysayers of all-white macho men movies can wait for the next Star Wars sequel where an Asian, a Latino and an African-American from all the genders, will be cast. And they will undoubtedly be given an equal amount of dialogues and screen time as their all-white co-stars. May the force be with you.

At the movie hall, I was seated next to a guy who had brought his girlfriend for a movie date night. During the break time, she was roasting the poor guy for bringing her to a  boring movie where characters keep talking, yet the crowd laughs for no reason like a bunch of maniacs. When the movie got over, she was dashing for the exit, and the guy went running after her while the crowd stood up and gave standing applause. Well. Either you are in the crowd applauding, or you are running for the exit.

Saturday, 30 March 2019

தமிழ் வாழ்க

ஆண்டுகள் பல்லாயிரமாயினும்
ஆண்டவரெல்லாம் மாண்டே போயினும்
கடைசி மானுடன் வாழும் நாள் வரை
பட்டொளி வீசி பறந்திடும் எம் தமிழ்க் கொடியே!

Thousand years may wither
Kingdoms may rise and fall
Till the last man walks this earth
Tamizh banner shall flutter high and bright!

Saturday, 16 February 2019

Rising from the ashes

I stopped writing poetry in the year 2008. I was angry with myself. On a cold winter night, I heaped up all the notebooks and papers ripe with written words and set them on fire. I watched them burn slowly till the last flicker of fire went off. I was angry at my own work. I did not find any beauty in what I wrote. The poems sounded as if they were fathered by someone else.

I stopped writing blog posts in 2010. At one point, I was too self-indulgent and did not take any criticism. There were too many writers mushrooming on the new social media platforms, and I consciously decided that I will stay away from the crowd.

Today, every social media user is a critique or a photographer. There are few new ideas, and the works appear as if they are clones. There is some sort of invisible cartel and hidden agenda in these creations soliciting everyone to subscribe to a uniform worldview.

There is very little reading happening since everyone is busy writing on their walls and what people write revolves around what is trending. The same idea gets repeated, shared several times and gets consumed by readers and writers alike over and over again. It’s a vicious circle.

There are other dangerous undercurrents too in forms of political propaganda, fetish worshipping or bashing of public figures and advertisements curated based on individual behavioural patterns. These movements are continually invading our living rooms with or without our consent.

I will not proclaim that I am here to make a change. But I cannot sit quietly watching the degeneration of our society in the name of pseudo-knowledge. I will write, of things I see and perceive, and document the dear world and the times we live in. I will bring my drop to the ocean.

I will continuously voice my views against the hatred and prejudices, more particularly the crushing madness of the social network juggernaut.

 Whatever little I wrote previously, contained the very same evils I want to speak against. Therefore, as the first step, I cleaned up my backyard. I reviewed and chopped of the weed from my little garden of words.

My friends, particularly women had taught me some manners and chivalry which I previously was unaware of. My hands were trembling with guilt and shame while reviewing and editing the chauvinistic shit I wrote as a bachelor.

I had a choice to destroy all the posts in a similar way I had burnt the poems. Instead, by cleaning up my mess, I think  I found my penitence, for my generous friends had forgiven my flaws long ago.

More than appreciation, I seek your criticism for there are many topics to disagree with the worldview and with each other. I hope dissent, debates and original ideas will make a better tomorrow.